if I fall

This week finding the right words has been difficult for me. My Dad passed away and I am feeling all “these things”; frustrated that I cannot put words on all of it. I’m not dreaming anymore. Not even the nightmares. Not for days. It’s unsettling. Grief, itself, has a unique strangeness. It grabs you and…

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you make me smile

Be love, be lovely. Today, as I was leaving a grocery store parking lot, I stopped short of the sidewalk to let a man approaching on bicycle pass. It’s an extremely hot day. Sometimes, living here in Florida is like living on the surface of the sun. The man’s face was scrunched into a grimace…

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including you

story by jenny hollowell // photos by natalie lampert Heard this for the first time today. Thought it was beautiful, so I’m sharing. The last few months have me thinking about all the things. Life things; turning 40, wellness, illness, forgiveness, regret, letting go, starting again, going away, returning, love and loveliness, losing, time, speaking…

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I’m gonna be

When my chronic inflammation gets the best of me, and even with my careful diet and avoiding stress it does still get me, I have a plan in place for dealing with it. Sounds funny to say that pain is something you get used to, but you do. Generally, a flare up can last 2…

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rain

It’s a music day! YAY!!!!! I am busy with not so fun work-type things and music helps be focus. Maybe “refocus” is the better term for it. There are at least 5 other things I would rather be doing (okay four, because this blog post counts as one). Right now we (still just me) are…

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silence and days

Yesterday I was feeling like the Summer is over. We’re not nearly to the middle of it yet… but I was looking forward to Fall. I don’t know what my problem is with staying present in what is “now”. I’m glad for the weekend, glad for time to quiet myself. I’ll continue organizing my spaces,…

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because this

Well, THAT was beautiful. Listening to Melody Gardot all day today. Because this. I have days where all I want to do is listen to music. Other days I cannot bring myself to even turn on the car radio. Strange to have those two extremes. If I think carefully about it, the days of music…

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under the same sun

APRIL is here and over the weekend I was very happy to be officially “out of the woods”, so to speak, with all of my dog’s various health issues and vet appointments. It’s a weird thing to admit, but the last few days I’ve been feeling low, angry, even sad at times. I know that…

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