farm fresh winter desktop wallpaper

click to download 2560×1600 desktop wallpaper We’re going to get cold weather this weekend in Jacksonville! Below freezing on Sunday according to the news. I’m planning on cozying up with hot cocoa and the furry children, watching Christmas movies and, of course, continuing to move my things from the tiny townhouse to the new house…which…

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new digs

Almost completely moved in to the new place (did I mention I’m moved/moving?). There are boxes everywhere and lots of things need to be done, but I’m damn tired and doing my best. Which is all you can do, right? 2017 drained my energy and I’m running on empty. The internet trolls, the hypocrites, the…

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catnap fever

Wow, I’m tired! It’s my own damn fault for staying up too late, working on drawings and fighting with the cat. I’ve slacked off a bit on Inktober this week, recharging my brain I guess. Tonight I’m going to try some ink washes instead of just the ink pen…I’m hoping I’m just a bit tired…

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sketch therapy

In August I bought myself a small chunky sketch book with light brown kraft paper pages. Since then I’ve been choosing random pages in it to sketch people and animals. The first thing I drew was a horse, then some faces, then a frog and some more faces. I do use references sometimes, especially for…

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battered not broken

It’s not unusual for me to take a break from this space in August but this break has been longer and more difficult than usual. Most of the difficulties have to do with Hurricane Irma, because of which we evacuated. It’s heartbreaking to see all the damage the storm has done to Florida and the…

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work weekend

August is my busiest month of the year for contract work. Nothing very creative, just nuts and bolts of book layout and such. The day job has been pretty hectic this month as well with projects I didn’t expect and pressure I really don’t need. I’m worn out, burnt out, and a feeling resentful. Working…

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quiet not blind

Had a long talk with my Mom a couple days ago. It was nice. I vented a lot, maybe cried a little. She gave me a good pep talk; put me in the right direction, told me I’m the only one that can do it, nobody else can do it for me. Something someone else…

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slow weekend

I’m not even exaggerating…it took me two years to break out my “new” watercolors and paint something with them. Study above is from last weekend. I’ve not touched the watercolors since. I worked almost 60 hours this week at the day job. Yesterday (Saturday) I slept almost the entire day and today my inflammation is…

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an impeccable sadness

Struggling a bit lately. I need to be honest because not admitting I’m feeling wobbly means staying stuck. I’m angry with myself, overthinking, overly critical, unsure about how best to push through so I’m taking things a day at a time, sometimes half a day. I’m frustrated and tired. “Depression is an impeccable sadness.” I…

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Over the last two weeks my inflammation flared and I’m exhausted. Dealing with pain doesn’t make for the best birthday but I’m not letting it consume me. I was able to get a few projects done this month, in spite of myself. Planted, painted, reorganized, started reading a new book. Sometimes during a flare up…

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