new digs

Almost completely moved in to the new place (did I mention I’m moved/moving?). There are boxes everywhere and lots of things need to be done, but I’m damn tired and doing my best. Which is all you can do, right? 2017 drained my energy and I’m running on empty. The internet trolls, the hypocrites, the…

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an impeccable sadness

Struggling a bit lately. I need to be honest because not admitting I’m feeling wobbly means staying stuck. I’m angry with myself, overthinking, overly critical, unsure about how best to push through so I’m taking things a day at a time, sometimes half a day. I’m frustrated and tired. “Depression is an impeccable sadness.” I…

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let the rain fall

It’s been a very stormy day, I woke up to thunder and heavy rain and was glad. I like it when the weather matches my mood. Sometimes it seems like we’re rushed through our sadness or, worse, encouraged to ignore it altogether. Isn’t it better, though, to recognize our sadness for what it is? Sadness…

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wild, wondrous and worthy

May is Mental Health Awareness Month “A mental illness is a condition that affects a person’s thinking, feeling or mood. Such conditions may affect someone’s ability to relate to others and function each day. Each person will have different experiences, even people with the same diagnosis.” Did you know? Approximately 1 in 5 adults in the…

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miracles

I know sometimes it can feel like we get up just so we can fall down again – and that the process of getting up can seem to take forever…because we are human and can only heal so much at a time. Even while we heal we are fending off new threats to our well-being;…

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you are here

We made it to September! Hooray for small miracles, am I right? Today was a decent day. Jacksonville just narrowly avoided Hermine (tropical storm?). Only a little bit scary around 4am this morning when the wind howled and debris grazed the side of my tiny townhouse. Don’t be fooled though, there’s plenty of things left…

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until then

August is mostly a difficult month for me as far as work goes. It’s the month that the workload picks back up at the day job and it’s the month that I work on a few labor intensive contract jobs. I’m almost at the finish line for the contracts, and I’m very grateful. I’m completely…

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yay jasmine

I watched as a tall, thin women dug up her front yard and planted viney plants at the base of a plain, black wrought iron fence. The plants were meticulously spaced and, since I’m not exactly plant savvy, I wondered what would become of them. A few weeks after that an archway was added to…

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looks like rain

Still not feeling “well” though I can say I feel “better”. May is slipping away into June and my days are slipping by even faster than that. It’s our slow time at the day job, for which I am thankful because I’m not great at the moment and could just as well stayed home today.…

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